I am a great reactor

That's the way I can put it. I was watching Jericho yesterday, and you know the guy that lives on anawesome-looking farm overlooking the hills? I thought: "I want to live ina  place like that!". But I couldn't be obothered with all the har work that comes with it.
I must be one of the laziest people alive. I know exactly how to make money, how to become rich (which I wouldn't mind, being rich I mean). But I couldn't possibly give so much importance to all the stuff you have to give importance to in order to get rich.
A friend a while back told me (he was almost coerced into telling me) what might help me feel happier would be to find a project i was apassionate about. There ar a lot of things I am passionate about when we discuss them, but none I am passionate about beyond those 5 minutes we are talking about them. None. That's because I make sureI live everyday according to my view of life, and I try and influence whoever interacts with me as much as possible towards that same view, but that's as far as it goes. Yes I like to write about it in case anybody might want to find some inspiration there, but that's really it.
I couldn't possibly go through al the passion that is required to become an avid collector, a botanist, an iron worker. Yes I'd love to work on my jewellery, but partly due to the discomfort of the set up until my ankle is healed properly, partly because I have too many other things on my mind, that is not happening either.
When I think about these things, and I think about what other people do in their big and little passions, I feel very bad about myself.
But, then, I think hey! Who is better than me in a crisis? Nobody I know! Ok fortunately we don't have many emergencies happening lately but still if we did, I'd be great (although i don't know any first-aid, that is another no-no).
Who will always respond to you on a very human level if ever you need me? Me! (Though that doesn't mean I can promise I'll stick around to be there for you in the future).
So, all and all, a not very good character really. Hopefully I won't affect my children. Hopefully they'll want to go through the trouble of studying harder, making an effort, doing the job.
I suppose though passion is what I have often been known for, ennui should be at least my middle name.